A few people have been asking for an update of the speeding ticket situation. I talked to my brother that night and he said that my best bet was to tell my folks. Though my goal was to get around this stupid fine without having them any the wiser, I knew that at the point where I was, I had little option. I told Jo the situation. It was silent fury all the way. She was mostly angry that I didn't tell her right away, but if I'd had my way, she wouldn't have known at all. But it's all cleared up now. Mom left her visa for me to pay it today. One less thing I have to worry about.
I've been walking/running/jogging quite a bit. Right now I can hardly stand because my legs hurt and I have blisters. I walked to Sears with Lindsay today to watch Lisa in the fashion show. She was by far the prettiest girl there and I promise that I'm not being biased. And on top of that, Lisa looks good in skinny jeans. Something I've never said before to anyone.
And just so the blog knows, I've yet to be accepted to university though I still check it like a mad woman.
I also have my road test coming up on Monday. Perhaps I'll finally get my G license and be able to drive in the states ... legally.
Something else that sucks. Maybe it's from all of the physical activity that's been thrust upon me, but I was so tired today. I turned my computer off at midnight, read some and then went to bed. Only problem was that I rolled around until 2am when I finally decided 'fuck it!' and got up. For some reason, sleep doesn't like me as much as I adore sleeping. Watch me finally go to bed at 5am - not my goal.
On another, unhappy note, I'm still not sure about my depression. It creeps up on me when I least expect and drags my mood right down. I have no idea what could be causing it, but I find that the later it is in the night, the more depressed I feel. I am looking forward to seeing the psychologist on March 4th for some insight to my brain. I know it's all screwed up in there. I can't ponder too deeply or think about things too much because then I start getting anxious, and the thoughts I get anxious about are sad thoughts. When I get anxious about sad thoughts, they linger in my brain. And, of course, unhappy lingering thoughts can only lead to be being depressed. How do I fix it?
I am stuck in a state of pure confusion.
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Totally love the fact that your blogging! Really interesting read. and its going to be really cool when you look back on your old posts and see your progress.
ReplyDeleteI seriously hope the depression goes away.If it were a person I would kick its ass. Just sayin'.