*waits*

Gah! Waiting for mail sucks balls! I wanna register to lakehead already! I wanna sign up for classes and start getting really excited. Why hasn't the mail come for me!?

Anyway. I helped Sylvie move today. She didn't have a lot of stuff and it only took two van fulls to get it all to her aunt's place, however, I was the 'muscles' of the group and therefore did most of the heavy lifting by myself. My arms grew at least seven times their previous size. That's big. Yeah, my arms hurt. I can't wait until I wake up tomorrow.

Tomorrow I need to clean the bathroom. Booooo! Tomorrow I also need to watch New Moon. Actually .... scratch that. I literally just put it on. Perhaps I'll watch it tonight. Okay, I just turned it off. I can't write listening to stuff.

So the psychologist thing! I have severe clinical depression. Meaning that I'm not constantly depressed, but I go through episodes that are very bad. And I have severe anxiety. Basically, I worry, dwell and try to avoid things as much as I can. As for those terrible thoughts I was having, he gave me a technical term for it. It's called Existential nihilism. Definition = Existential nihilism is the belief that life has no intrinsic meaning or value. It can stem from scientific analysis showing that only the physical laws contributed to our existence. With respect to the universe, a single human or even the entire human species is insignificant, without purpose and is not likely to change in the totality of existence. Quite simply, nihilists in this respect believe that the only purpose in life is to live it.I am supposed to get some individual councelling soon. I'm looking forward to that. On the topic for pills, my councillor and I will decide what's best for me and what I want to do.

Though with all of the help that I'm now getting it, I'm not feeling so bad anymore. Actually, not bad at all. I have been smiling and getting out more and not been dwelling on the meaning of life.
maybe it's because music is nice. Let me explain that because it sounds funny. I'm recently added two new songs to my playlist. I call them 'happy' songs. I don't even know if the lyrics are happy ... I think one of the songs would be quite depressing if not for the kickass banjo in it. Anyway, I want to share my happy songs with whomever could be reading this.

Mumford and Sons - Little Lion Man
Owlcity - Fireflies